Today is my 15 year sobriety birthday.  Sometimes it feels like 1 year, sometimes it feels like 100 years.  I definitely find myself contemplating my life every year on this day. 

The last couple of years have really been about finding myself and the next level of growth.  I have to admit, I haven’t done a lot of 12 step work these last few years… But in the past year I have done some major therapy around some pretty deep-seated issues.  I have also discarded a lot of the self loathing and discovered some of the root causes of my depression.  I’ve worked on my ADD, admitting that meds actually are good for me (and those around me!).  I’m trying to be true to the inner me and listen to myself more. 

But most of all… On my sobriety birthday, I remember the people who have made an impact on my life.  Those who carried me when I couldn’t drag myself.  The ones who showed me what healthy relationships looks like.  How a healthy, responsible, and mature woman should act, cause lord knows, i still feel like a gawky, dorky, 12 year old.

Every year on this day, I am so deeply grateful for those relationships and people that have given me strength, love, hope, and love.

Thank You.